Remember in Good Will Hunting, when Matt Damon's character, the brilliant but wounded janitor, agrees to attend therapy sessions with Robin Williams? At his core, he's so jaded, so hurt that he doesn't believe healing is even possible. During the rest of the movie, we see this facade begin to crumble and (OK, maybe it's a little abrupt) change. We know things don't happen as fast as they do in movies, but we want to believe that in this space of 1-2 hours, we can get a little of that healing, too. That's why we go on these vicarious journeys to save the world again and again (I mean, how many times are they gonna tell THAT story?), lose, cry, triumph and move on again. 

Similarly, I deal with a lot of wounded people. They're a curious bunch, most of them looking for a little window into their future. Some people need to talk while others are really looking for direction or answers. And you know what? I admire them all. 

I know psychics, particularly the online and phone kind, have taken a sometimes-deserved hit in the national consciousness. Let's face it. There are a-holes out there who ruin it for the rest of us, who just want to try and provide a service that treats everyone with dignity, and have actual business practices with some integrity behind them :). But there are those, like me, who look at healing like a puzzle, trying to rearrange the pieces in the best way for each  client. It may be a book or a class. It may be some Matrix Energetics, or distance reiki. It may even be a change in location, diet, exercise or friends. It's that strategic, problem-solving aspect of what I do that I love the most. Well, that and talking with the dead. 

After some sessions, I feel very full and sometimes overwhelmed. Though I've been doing this for over twenty years now, my skills are still growing, still expanding, and it appears that there may be no end to where they can go. I talked to someone's dead friend yesterday, gave her the message and she burst into tears. I tried to repeat the exact same words I heard, and she validated their truth. After the session, the same voice said, "You did good, kid," and I thought I was gonna cry. 

So I'm gonna be honest here. I have no idea why I can do what I can do. I don't know where it comes from, and part of me doesn't want to understand. Maybe that will ruin the mystery aspect for some people. I just know I can help people, and that's enough for me -- today, at least.